When I was 14 I woke up and my Uncle was going down on me! Help!
I am a 20y/o woman. (I say that b/c I’ve noticed that most of these are guys making-up fantasies, but this truly happened to me!)
When I was 14 I was staying at my aunts for the summer. One night I woke-up from a very realistic sex dream, and my uncle had his head between my legs, he was licking me, and I was right at the start of an orgasm! Though my instinct was to pull my knees to my chest and scream, I just wanted to orgasm! When my orgasm ended, I pulled my knees to my chest, like the fetal position. He said “oh wow, did you cum?” I just nodded! He said “that’s fantastic”, and caressed my thigh, my naked butt, kissed me on my lips and left. I shook, I couldn’t stop shaking. IDK how he got my panties off w/o me waking up, to make it worse, he was the first person to give me an orgasm, and it was only my second one ever. The next morning he acted like nothing happened, but so did I. I guess this empowered him, b/c he did it again the next night. My reaction was the same... stunned silence, but that time when I woke, he had just started, but I did nothing, I just lay there enjoying it! It felt so unbelievably good (physically), but mentally it was killing me! I hated myself, the thought of him doing it made me sick, but the reality felt amazing! Within a few days I looked forward to it, and THAT made me feel even worse. After a week I stopped wearing underwear to bed, to make it easier for him? That first night I didn’t wear my panties, he said “you can touch me if you want”. I didn’t, but that made me feel worse, I felt selfish! So the next night I did touch him (w/o him asking) he even began kissing me! Eventually after he used his mouth on me I would use my mouth on him. It didn’t go any further (thank god). Now I just hate myself! I feel like I betrayed my aunt. Therapy didn’t help, and I just don’t know what to do, anymore I feel like I was equally to blame, like I wanted it... I’m at my wits end, any help from someone who went through something like this?