5 years ago,I made out with a 55 years old man in his car when I was 25. I am a girl working away from home.I used to travel in cab whenever I need to go somewhere.This guy was my regular cab driver.
He was a very good person, soft spoken, helpful.We exchanged number and started texting in WhatsApp.
Our normal random chats gradually turned into sexting.One day our chats got so hot,both of us became so horny.We decided to meet outside at 2am.He picked me up in his cab and drove off to a nearby parking lot.Uncle’s hand was inside my blouse squeezing my breasts all the way until we reach the parking lot. I was stroking his D**k.
Once we reached there,we went to the back seat of his cab.We were kissing each other madly and started making out.Within minutes I was topless with my pants down in his car. We were having oral sex right there in the parking lot.He was all over me sucking and licking.I was giving him blowjob.
We went back after an hour,we did not have any penetration that day.After that night I felt so guilty and stopped talking to him.I blocked him everywhere and avoided him.I was scared to lose my virginity before marriage.But recently I heard he was asking about me to my colleagues,I also saw him a few times.
I miss him and sometimes I think I love him.I feel like losing my virginity to him.I have this urge to have sex with him, at the same time I don't want to do it.
Is it wrong to have such feelings for an aged man?
I am single and still a virgin.(culture prohibits sex before marriage)