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I think I love my teacher?
I have fallen in love with my English teacher. He is so hot. I love everything about him. It's like the more I talk with him I feel like we are kindred spirits or something. We like the same books, movies, even music. Today I was just watching him walking around the classroom. He has the cutest bottom. It's so nice and round. He's only 25 and I'm 16 but that could work. Plenty of relationships are separated by more years than that. My own mother and father are 9 years apart. Dad is older. Mom said he just found guys her age to be so immature and she felt like they didn't have anything in common.
Anyway I find myself thinking about him all the time. Morning , noon, evening , and bedtime. I'm thinking about him. I can picture what our lives would be like when we get married. I feel like if you want something you can make it happen if you trust and believe. I have a very strong will for someone so young. I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him. I want to tell the world that I love him. Most importantly I want to tell him. I'm afraid he will just tell me that I'm too young and blow me off. That would make me so mad I might do something really stupid. Like taking a key to the side of his car. But I couldn't do that. The parking lot has video surveillance. But his apartment complex doesn't. I jumping ahead here. My therapist calls it projecting. I'm getting ahead of myself here. Nothing has happened yet.
I just hope this isn't like last time with my piano teacher. I told him how I felt about me and he told my parents I needed a knew teacher. I was so hurt I put acid on the hood of his Volvo and it ate the paints away and it started to rust. I got caught cause the store had a video camera inside that saw me. Well they didn't see my face but he recognized my unique hoody I wear. I had to pay restitution. My parents did that is. Since it was my first time and I started seeing a therapist the judge didn't make me do any stupid community service or anything. I know what I did was wrong. But he hurt me when he rejected me and told my parents to find another teacher. Asshole I hope he fucking gets his hands broke. Like slammed in a car door and can't play the piano for a long time.
Honey, please take NO notice of the trolls because at your age there are many reasons for feeling as you do, some quite natural and mainly due to hormones etc. Just keep getting professional guidance and try to develop other interests as this will pass.
Dr Joanna fairbright
They make drugs for what you have. Ask your therapist for some, and take LOTS of them.