I have no excuse
I have absolutely no excuse for what I've done. I cheated on my husband . When I went to san Francisco this summer. I went there because an old friends mom had passed away so I went for the funeral. The following evening we went out for drinks and she introduced me to some of her co workers. I wasn't even drunk or waisted or anything. I don't have any reasons for the fact I started hitting on a couple cute guy's she know, we eventually went back to one of their places and I had sex with them. It wasn't the kind of soft beautiful love making kind of sex. It was the hard core use every part of her body at the same time kind of sex. The things we did are the things you may see in an average porn movie. The next morning I showered and left , my old friend doesn't want to talk to me anymore except calling me a whore and I haven't told my husband. I'm overwhelmed with guilt.
NEVER EVER admit you had an affair. It will likely crush him.
Do you want to do it again? Would you if you had the chance? Being with one person sexually for the rest of your life isn't for everyone. You can love your husband but need more sexually than he can give you. If its just raw sex enjoy, it only gets messy if you get emotionally attached to whoever your fucking around with.
I completely agree, I absolutely love my husband with all my heart ,but no matter how I have tried to spice things up with him he is just not into trying new things in bed. I travel a few times a year with work and when I do I seek out the sexual release I need. I have been with two men many times and woke up feeling used and exhausted but incredibly satisfied. If I couldn't have those times to just have rough passionate sex we would have been divorced years ago.