I'm a part of the problem in mordern society
I did my bestfriends dirty which explains why I'm mostly by myself nowadays. It started back in highschool when I would get close to my friend's girlfriends or exs. It was actually really easy because they'd either do it with me out of revenge, jealousy, or just anger at my friends. Near the end of senior year they found out and were outraged with me, understandable. But to my surprise I didn't care, the only things I heard were their exs and girlfriends saying "he's small" "he's too jealous" "stayed with him because i felt bad" or other things they told me while doing it. That was more than enough for me to be ok with them gone and guess where I hung out finishing highschool? With their girls laughing at the scene they made when confronting me and talking shit. I convinced two of their exs to get our own revenge by accidentally sending him a snap of us kissing sitting on my laps. I felt strong in that moment and no longer cared about making friends. The ones I did I always tried to get with their girls in college. Sometimes they did and sometimes not but i enjoy the thrill of possibly being caught. Im enjoying the college life but for the first time i saw myself in the mirror of a store kissing my friend's girlfriend. That was the first time i even considered someone else's point of view besides my own. Im starting to feel bad but i feel like its an addiction. Also I don't want to go back to "normal" because now I know, these girls can't be trusted for shit. I think that's why you hear so many scandalous stories nowadays, there is something addictive about it.