To my shame I want to be dominated by a white woman.
I don't know how to feel about this a part of me feels ashamed disgusted and I hate myself for feeling this way I'm a freak.
I'm a black man in his mid 20s and I have the desire to be dominated and degraded by a white woman like I want to be completely under her mercy.
I want to be a slave to her and I want her to remind me that I'm lesser then her that I am pathetic.
I want to worship her like a goddess and I want her to be very wrathful I want her to punish me even if I do everything she says I want to be under her utter control.
If she is a women who is older then me I want her to treat me like An abused step child if she is the same age as me I want her to treat me like I'm just the complete dirt under her feet.
I want her to cause as much pain to me as possible I want to be reminded of my place I would let her treat me like a woman I would be the definition of a bitch to my white goddess.
I already do things to myself thinking that it's my white goddess doing it to me.
My biggest fantasy is a group of white women ganging up on me beating me up calling me names and brutally destroying my ass.
I also have a fantasy of being a husband under the rule of his wife people would see us as the prefect couple and happy but behind close doors she hurts me in as many was as possible.
I want her to break me.
I am a poor excuse of a black man I dishonor my ancestors and my race for wanting this but I can't help the way that I feel every time I see a white woman I imagine myself being subjugated by her.
I have dreams of white women like Lauren southerns or Lana from red ice tv making me their slave I be forced to take all the most horrid things they could come up with.
If I married a white woman I wouldn't spring this on her because she would most likely think that I have problems but I'd would honestly would love her and treat her like a princess.
I just don't know how to control my thoughts and what I do to myself and what I want a white woman to do to me and what I want is for her to hurt me remind me of my place.
I am very confused.