I haven't told my boyfriend I go to gloryholes
So this is something I've been doing since before we started dating...
We live in a pretty populated part of Cali where there are lots of porn shops/sex clubs with glory holes. I originally got into it because I liked the extra cash some people would slip me but I have student and car loans and a job that doesn't pay an incredible amount.
The issue is the fact that my boyfriend is pretty monogamous and he doesn't like to entertain the idea of threesomes or cheating or anything like that. So I know I can't tell him. and I can't afford to quit.
I usually give blowjobs. I strip into my underwear and take cum in my mouth or on my body/face. Occasionally the clients will signal for vaginal (2 fingers) or anal (3 fingers). I give them both. Some people have special requests that they sometimes pay for. It's usually weird non-sexual things like farting, drooling, etc. Some people will ask me to do things that are incredibly degrading but too difficult for me to pass up. Some clients ask me to burp or defecate or pee or something similar.
I wouldn't feel so bad about this if it was JUST gloryholing. but it's become more than that. Several of the places have regular clientele that know me and which spot I'm in. they call me by my nickname and I call them daddy, master, etc. There are people who sometimes join me in the booth, to the effect that I'm sucking two cocks at once, or so that they can see me doing some act.
I know it's my fault and that it's cheating but I don't know what to do. One of the "clients" meets me at a specific time on specific days (I don't want to specify) inside the booth and commands me to do things. He pays me very well, but I feel like the requests are getting worse and that the money might not even be worth it. He's one of the clients who requests "degrading" things on a weekly basis. Sometimes it's like the things I mentioned before and sometimes it's worse - drinking pee, nipple torture, cum farting, etc. It kills me to go home and have sex with my boyfriend without being able to tell him that somebody else came in my ass or fucked my pussy or pissed on my face.
What do I do? It's tearing me apart and I need the money but I feel trapped.