Had to be honest with him
I finally broke down and told my husband that I have cheated on him numerous times since we have been married. He had only a few questions like why . My answer was easy , it's because I need sex more than once or twice every month or two. He understood , he really didn't seem to surprised actually and admitted that he has no sex drive and really didn't want to do anything about it , like pills or see a doctor or something. We are not that old so that was different to hear , especially because almost every man I know is all over having sex with me. He got up and said I just don't want you to leave me , I can live with the fact your having sex with other men but I don't know if I can handle you leaving me. The other thing he asked for was pictures and videos of my sexual excursions. Again I was floored he said maybe it will revive his sex drive. This all happened about this time last year. I can't tell you how many times I have sent him videos and pictures with no response. This Friday out of the blue he texted me and asked if I would be willing to try multiple men at the same time , I answered with if that's what you want. He said he wanted to watch it in person so for me to set it up. I did and half way through it he simply got up, went down stairs and started drinking beers. Meanwhile I was getting pounded by guys in our bedroom. When it was finally over he hasn't said anything to me about it. I'm not sure what to think about my life any more.