I want to f*ck my uncle so bad
My attraction to my uncle just keeps growing. He is 45 and I'm 23. He's so handsome, tall, strong and sexy... I've been lusting and fantasizing over him since I was about 17. He's related to me by blood, so that makes it worse, and I do feel really bad. Yet, I can't help it. I want him so bad - I want to kiss him, make love to him, and I always dream of him licking me out. Ugh, I feel so guilty about the thoughts I have.
Sometimes I wonder if he has ever felt the same about me. He can barely look me in the eyes; he always looks down immediately if we make eye contact. It's so weird. The tension between us feels so intense. Even if we're just standing near each other, I feel a strong pull towards him. I've been told I'm an attractive young woman... and there's no doubt I secretly want him to find me attractive.
I think there must be something wrong with me. I know I'm sick and messed up for wanting him but I can't help it.