I've cheated on my husband numerous times, each time I do I feel horrible for him. Then go right back out and do it again, I try not to do it with the same man more then just a few times. I feel that there won't be any kind of attachments if we stop seeing each other after that. The reason I'm just now finally confessing my sins, is this. The man I had recently been sleeping with invited me to his house for one last fling. When I arrived I should have just turned and left because he had also invited his friends. Some how he was able to talk me into being with all of them. Sorry I'm crying a little as I type this. It was brutal they were relentlessly pounding me, with that being said I never said stop but I should have. They have torn my rectum area so bad I have stitches. I've been able to hide this so far from my husband but the rape task force and other rape help people continue to try calling me to help. I feel my life is going to be ruined soon.