I want to be raped

Lots of girls have lots of rape fantasies. I've been raped quite a bit and I still have those kinds of thoughts and fantasies.

I know. I don't understand it but I love a woman that WANTS IT that bad. It's not right to treat a woman that way but I love to fuck until my cock is raw and it hurts. Then I want more! It must be demonic. Then I will want to conquer your asshole. Butt fuck you. Love that tight asshole. Makes me come harder. Love for you to beg me to reach around and ball your tits to take your mind off your torn anus.

I was raped by two older men when I was 13 years old, for hours. The truly traumatizing part is that even though I was saying no and being held down and taken, mentally I knew I shouldn't enjoy it...but once the initial pain of losing my virginity passed... I was so wet. I was 13 years old and they just kept commenting on how I could say I didn't want it but my pussy was saying the opposite. The bed was soaked and the more I got the more I wanted. The worse part is that after that night I never told anyone and I had to be around one man frequently and it gave me butterflies to here him say my name. As wet as I was during this experience, literally squirting, later in life as a consenting participant I couldn't have an orgasm. I often think about that night during sex to get off now. I saw a psychiatrist and he kept referring to my childhood sexual trauma, I felt guilty, ashamed, and a bit frustrated because he just couldn't understand that the rape didn't traumatized me, but my craving it and having this weird fetish does. I guess maybe being a 13 year old Virginia shared by two grown men who talked about it being the best experience they had had while doing it, they talked dirty to me about how I was built for pleasing men, and how their wives had never felt that good, etc. I do realize they were sick perverted fucks... but that's still a lot to compare sex to. It made high school sex a huge disappointment. And yes I will likely always have the desire. As wrong as child molestation is, the hardest part for many victims is that it felt good and made us feel special, the traumatic part is our guilt.

I can definitely relate.

I wish to "rape" someone.

Hey, you can rape me. Please daddy