My boyfriend doesn't know I'm a pothead
Basically, I've smoke weed for about 14 years now on and off (but mostly on). When I first got with my boyfriend 2 years ago I wasn't smoking it. He knows I was a big pothead, but as I had stopped smoking it at the time I met him I told him it was all in the past. And it was. For a few months...
My 2 best friends still smoke it everyday and I sometimes had a couple of tokes with them before going home. Nothing worth mentioning to him. But its started getting all to frequent again. It's gotten to the point where I'm spending £40 or more on it a week and finding reasons to "nip to the shop" so I can smoke a zoot on the way down. Most nights I get in the shower so I roll a doobie and run the shower really hot so the bathroom gets really steamy. Cover the bottom of the door with a towel, light a few candles to mask the smell and hang out of the window and smoke my joint.
I actually have the feeling he knows I'm smoking it... hell, he must have smelled it at some point! But if he does he hasn't said anything, and I feel like it's gone on too long to tell him. To be honest, I don't think he would be that bothered that I smoke it. I think he would be bothered that I've hidden it and lied about it for so long. I don't want to fall out with him and I feel awful and stupid for not just telling him. I want to be honest with him, I'm just scared that he would be really pissed at me
Don't be freaked - he knows, you know he knows, and it's really not that big of a deal. If he freaks over this, he's not the freak you want in your bed, I'd imagine. Come clean, clean the sheets, come on the sheets, live a happy life. Be casual about it, and tell him you fucking love smoking pot, you're happy when you're smoking it, you're happy you're with him and you're fucking happy he's happy, then be happy fucking in your THC-and-endorphins filled glory! Win this round and you're fucking golden, girl. Win, I say! WIN!