Never had sex without paying..
I am 21 years old, lost count how many times I've had sex, but it's always been with hookers/call girls. I thought having sex with them would eventually give me confidence to talk/dance with girls in clubs, work and school... but to this day I still can't be calm around them. It comes to the point that there are days that I don't even care I'm sleeping with escorts, and there are days that makes me ashamed that i would still be a virgin to this day without em and never had a girlfriend. Is it ok that I don't give a shit? The thought of just paying a girl to sleep with me just sounds a lot better than actually trying to hookup/get a girlfriend. My roommates now have girlfriends, and I get, idk... Envious. What does it feel like, being with someone that syncs with you? Able to say anything without a worried thought if you played your cards right?
Nothing wrong with sex with whores, they been around since biblical times. Sounds like you have a little social anxiety around women, though. Some pychological therapy and medications such as prozac or other SSRI medications would do wonders for your problem. Whores are great, but there is nothing better than being in a meaningful relationship with someone you live, at least that's my opinion.