I should have known

I should have known the type of woman I was getting involved with and what kind of life I would have with Pam if we ever married. There was a huge red flag that I ignored when we first started dating. But I was blinded by my 17-year-old hormones. Pam was not that good looking in the face, but she was the first girl that I had gotten past second base with, and she was giving me oral sex frequently and she absolutely loved it when she let me finger her pussy. Pam told me that she wasn’t a virgin and that when we knew each other better, she would take my virginity. Based on that promise alone, I wasn’t going to dump her no matter what she did.

Pam had recently moved into town, and I was the first guy she started seeing. Pam was not bashful about telling me her sexual history either. She proudly confessed that she had been dating three different boys simultaneously before she moved here and that she had been having intercourse with all three of them regularly. Still, I was the only guy she was dating here, and I fiercely kept any other guys away from her. She was my girlfriend, and I thought I could keep her to myself.

This is the red flag I ignored that foretold my future with her. Pam and I had been dating for about two months when she informed me that one of her other boyfriends was coming to visit her over weekend and he would be staying at the house with her. I would like to say that her parents were naïve, and I could confidently say that her dad was. But he worked all the time and wasn't around much. However, I do believe that her mom knew exactly what was going on and was even facilitating her daughter’s promiscuity for her own vicarious enjoyment. Anyway, I was quickly informed that Pam had been maintaining a relationship with the boy who was coming to visit. She was also not hesitant about telling me that she would be having sex with him. When I objected, she told me that my only choice was to decide if I wanted to keep dating her or not. Either way she was going to fuck him. She also promised that it would not be much longer and I would get to do it with her.

I think that I would have left her had she not made that promise. The weekend came and I had to keep my distance while he was in town. I was miserable but I also knew that I would soon be rewarded. Pam was actually quite proud when she confirmed what she had done with him when I saw her on Monday. But she sucked me off after school and I let my anger go. Pam eventually took my virginity, and I went on and pretended not to know what she would do when she would go back to her old hometown every few months.

After high school, Pam and I got married and she promised that she had abandoned her old promiscuous life. I believed that she had gotten it out of her system and I would be her one and only going forward. I think that at the time she honestly felt that way and I trusted her. But it was less than four years into our marriage that Pam informed me that she was sleeping with another man and wanted to know if I was ok with it. When I objected, she gave me the same choice I had back in high school. Only this time we had a child, and I relinquished. We have been living that way ever since. At least she is honest with me when I ask.

By Anonymous Nov 8

Relationship CONFESSION

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