Experiencing love for the first time in my life

I grew up in the 70s, mom was a stay at home mom and dad was a marine. Mom wanted me to be a good church goer and Dad wanted me to break hearts and punch faces. I played football but wasn't the quarterback or anything, just a seat warmer. I was a 6'3" muscular guy, I wanted to find my place but never quite fit in.
Girls were always put off my my touch, too much of a idiot and a brute I was told. I was happy when a girl liked me enough to marry me. I was wrong. We waited until marriage to have sex and so on our honeymoon I had the worst experience of my life. It shattered my confidence that my wife didn't want to make love to me, that it had to be rushed so she could get it over with.
10 years later I couldn't live that sham and we divorced and I tried my best to move on. I moved from girl to girl and they'd all start happy because I was a big strong handsome man and somewhere they'd lose interest and sex became a meaningless act that they were not interested in.
At this point I'm feeling less and less of a man. Is it me? Am I the problem? I've been told I'm handsome, I take care of myself and I'm more than big enough where it counts. So what could it be?
Then one day I met a man. He loved that I lifted him and gave him kisses when I came home. He loved that I would touch his hands, his shoulders, and run little circles over his body just because I wanted to touch him. He loved that I would slap his rear anytime he would pass by. He loved that I would hold him just because he was there. Then I realized that this man loves me and loves the touch of a man more than any woman ever could.
I've been with him for almost 9 years now and never felt like less of a man. I've never felt shame or guilt. I don't have to beg for sad pity sex that lasts longer than the time it took me to ask. I don't have to beg for oral sex that ends up being just a lick and few tugs. This man's eyes light up whenever I pull my pants down. I've felt pleasure that I could of had only dreamt of. He cherishes me and pleasures me because he enjoys it.
If I could go back in time and change my life I would. Women don't like men, women don't appreciate men, women don't enjoy men, women don't love men, women don't deserve men. I wish I would of understood that earlier in life.

By Anonymous

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