I am a bad Motherfucker

Yep, bad as in terrible. Always fuck women in their 40’s and 50’s. All have had children.

I have never been married and never had children and never had std’s.

I am here to confess how bad I am. I fuck for my own pleasure. I am a sex addict and something comes over me mentally and I am no longer a nice considerate guy. I am no longer gentle and pleasant. The addiction turns me into a rude crude asshole. I fuck hard. I am foul mouthed and dirty talking. I love to fuck until my cock is raw and then want some more. I am a tit lover/worshipper and an ass fucker.

I understood that part of my problem was not just sex but more directly being touch starved. So I took massage training and became good with my hands. I could massage and finger pussy better than I could lick it. Even did some anal training for women that wanted to be stretched out so they could take cock without having their ass torn.

I have picked women up at bars, done the dating site thing, joined a swingers group and at one time even helped to run it. fucked multiple women in one evening - but only one on one. I participated in a gangbang and wished for a reverse gangbang - where multiple women would rape me. Never got that last one.

It is almost demonic. I have tried to shake it off - many times.

Every woman has told me that they feel used and filthy when I am done with them. That is a bit strange because of all things, I am obsessive about being clean. Clean clothes, freshly bathed and freshly brush my teeth. I don’t even smoke or drink. In fact I always insist that the woman brush her teeth and sometimes take a shower.

This sex addiction is really my only vice. I will fuck bareback but use a condom for ass fucking. Most time use a condom for first time vaginal sex. I won’t fuck a smoker. I don’t care if the woman wants to be drunk or stoned but she has to be clean.

Of course when my head clears, I feel bad about it. And I never out and out rape the woman. She can tell me to stop at any time and I will. I also listen to her desires and try to incorporate them in what I do. So I guess I am not a total asshole.

I know I am totally bad on my part with one exception. And this is a bit of a rarity but does happen. I seem to be a good fit for those that have been previously raped or suffered childhood sexual abuse. I’ve seen enough of it now that the woman is trying to recreate her experience. I think I have a handle on what is going on in her head. She wants to understand it better. To experience those feelings again. I theorize that part of this is some desire to change history and maybe rewrite the ending. To somehow conquer this experience. In this regard, I am accommodating. In fact one of my favorite things to do is role play. I believe I have helped a couple of women cope with their horrific experience. I have been told so by them and in at least two cases, see them get their lives together and marry a nice guy that never finds out about the secret. I have been asked to quietly exit their lives when this happens and I always honor that request. We had our fun and no reason for me to be bitter about it. So in addition to being a bit of a sexual predator, I do have some ethics and honor about me. Hard to believe.

Well that is my confession. I have been celibate since covid. I entertain the idea of returning to my old ways but so far has held to the straight and narrow. I live a quiet unassuming life. I even go to Church and try to be a good Christian. To find a nymphomaniac Christian woman is my dream.

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