Why is ne so mad?

I am married and 45 years old, my husband (Michael) and I are ok as far as the relationship although he has pushed me away the last couple times I have tried to get him interested. Out marriage has been sexless he says for 8 years although I think it has been less. Recently I did have sex with him one time although he wasn’t putting in much effort, I was still able to do my thing as it had been a while. What sparked it was we had been out for his birthday and he had a couple of drinks and I had a few more strong ones. We were chatting about the past and he asked me about a couple of past lovers and one situation in particular. That situation was when we were first transitioning from friends with benefits to serious dating, he was talking of moving and we had talked about skipping the dating phase and going into marriage. At this point we had been seeing each other for 5 months. I had to meet up with one of my other friends with benefits (Tim) who was an older well to do guy who had helped me out after my divorce getitng me an apartment and would pay some of my rent on occasion also take me out for expensive meals and even buy me lavish gifts. The thing with him was he was mid to late 40s and I was 22 years old, sex was mediocre at best and he had no stamina, he always tried to be a little more wild and sexy but never quite pulled it off. My husband was closer to my age was good looking and seemed to hit the spot and had staying power, plus he was good with the kids. I met up with Tim while Michael was at work, we met at a nice sports bar and had a few drinks. I had just gotten off of a 12 hour shift with no break so I had a small appetizer and a couple of strong drinks. Tim invited his friend Andy along, I had met Andy before and he was good looking and about 10 years younger than Tim. The Few times I met him was typically at Tims place when relaxing in his hot tub. During this time I was also seeing two other guys Nate and Chuck, who were roommates, they were both also friends with benefits and shortly before I met Mike they talked me into a threesome and we had been doing them ever since. Now my roommate was quite pissed I had been stringing along 4 men in my life and all of them had met her but none were attracted to her. I thought she was much prettier than I was as she was super thin tall but had no boobs to speak of so she was quite jealous. On this night meeting with Tim, he said he had heard about my threesomes (from my roommate) and he thoguht it would be sexy to watch me with Andy. At the moment he had asked that I was kind of shocked and I told him I actually was there to try to tell him we cant see eachother anymore. Well after a couple more rounds we ended up at Tims place and Iw as quite tipsy pretty much blacked out drunk. Needless to say the first thing I recall was Tim talking to Andy about how my body looked and felt and them both complimenting my as Andy removed my bottoms and started touching me then Tom talked about my breasts and removed my top. At this point I realized that Andy was tasting me then penetrating me, although I don’t recall giving consent for this my body was reacting to the positive for it even though I was trying to tell them not to continue. I don’t think my words were coherent and Tim kissed me during this telling me how sexy it was, I recall achieving an orgasm realizing it was sexy Andy on top of me, he was still going hadnt finished and soon I felt another building. He finished and moved away then Tim entered me. I recall this time it was actually somewhat good with Tim, but he didn’t last long. Andy was kissing me and playing as well as kissing my chest, soon after Tim completed Andy was back ready to go this time he started kissing me and I was kissing him back. By now my words were somewhat coherent, when he said “it looks like you like this.” I wanted to say we needed to stop but it came out don’t stop. He was going so hard he slipped out on the back thrust and I reached to line him back up and realized he was wearing a rubber I just held on to him for a few seconds. He asked if it was ok to take it off? I was trying to roll it down immediately. He went back into me bare and he went at me again. This interlude lasted for another hour until I was too tired to continue then they took me to my car and I drove home. At the time I broke it off with Michael and a week later we got back together. I had told him it was more forced than anything and it was only touching no intercourse. That is until the night I let it slip out after 22 years. He has acted different to me since then because he said I lied to him all these years ago. I mean what does it matter now?

By Anonymous

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