My urge

I’ve been faithful to my wife of thirty years but I have an urge to do something that haven’t done for a very long time which is to suck a cock. I really don’t find men attractive but I have this need to feel an erect cock in my mouth and to taste spunk again.
When I masturbate, my fantasies are about my past homosexual encounters, the first tentative sexual experiences at boarding school with other boys, the first time time I sucked cock in my late teens.
Of course a sixty year old man can’t go interfering with teenage boys, that’s obscene but men my age are not in any way.
Oh well. These gay urges go away for a while after we have sex or I have a wank but soon enough I’m back to square one.
I’m sure I’m not alone with these kind of thoughts.