I want to get pregnant but I want him to force it on me
I live in another city and have another life. But growing up things were different. One night my mother pushed my father away, he was drunk, so he took it out on me. I was eleven. You don't think that you can take full penetration at eleven but you can. And you can get pregnant. I was sent to live with some relatives where I had the baby and my baby was put up for adoption with some relatives. While I was pregnant my father was sentenced to 30 years without parole. After he was sentenced and in prison my mother hanged herself in the garage. I was an orphan and raised by my relatives, that's why where I live is another city, and I live another life.
It's in the past, but one day at work (I'm 27 now, but then I was 22) I was talking to my boss, a very understanding and fatherly man, and I just slipped and told him all about that part of my past. After that he and I became very close and one day he hugged me and I let him kiss me and then he undressed me until he stood me in front of him admiring me, telling me with words everything he saw and why he thought I was wonderful. He made love to me, and while he was penetrating he held my face and told me he really liked to have sex with women, real women, women who wanted to be women.
I was unprepared for sex and I got pregnant. I guess I'm fertile. He was nice about it, wanted me to keep the baby and told me that I needed to be a mother, and he takes care of me in the financial sense and in the love sense. I only have sex with him. It's like I need to have him having sex with me to get that feeling of belonging, when he is inside me and holding my face telling me I'm a woman I feel like I do belong to him.
I want to have another baby. He is sixty now and I don't know if he wants another child to support. I have 'tricked' him, that is I have gotten off birth control and am managing through timing, but I don't want to get pregnant like that. I want him to take me, thrust himself in me, and tell me he is getting me pregnant. I want that so bad but I don't know how to make that happen.
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