There's a couple problems......
.......but they will become bigger ones.
About 3 months ago I started kinda dating a girl who's working for the place where I work. First problem: since we work together we aren't supposed to date, so we have to sneak around or we could both get fired. Second problem: she's older then me (37 to
23) and divorced, so i've been lying to my parents about dating anybody, and haven't told them that she also has any kids, five (my parents would die from all that). Third problem: she's really good at sex, but the main thing is she has these AWESOME big soft lips and she kisses so AMAZING, but she's a smoker and I cant get over that even though I was sure that I could (i have tried hard for 3 months but just cant do it). I would not break up with her in reality for anything but the smoking, but I cant tell her i'm breaking up with her for smoking (so petty, am I right?). So I am thinking to tell her that we have to break up on account of the work rules because I don't wanna be the reason for her kids mom to lose her job. That would all be true but saying it would make me feel like the biggest POS in the history of the entire world because I would not be telling her that the real reason is cigarettes (even though I am falling in love with her HARD) OR that I am a shallow selfish bitch. I don't know what to do. I know the first reply here will be "stop being such a horrible chickenshit", and I will have no defense to that because it's totally true. I'm awful and looking to lie my way out of love. They don't write poems or songs or movies about this . . . . . .