Not Actually Bisexual?
I recently came out as bisexual (I'm a guy). However, almost everyone I've told has said that I'm not actually bisexual. They either say that I'm just a super horny young adult or that I just haven't realized I'm gay yet.
I'm physically and emotionally attracted to women, and only emotionally attracted to men (I have to develop emotional attraction before I find a man physically attractive.)
I personally think my sexuality has a lot to do with my experiences growing up. I've had quite a few girlfriends throughout my life and enjoyed having sex with them. On the other hand, I've never had a boyfriend but I have sucked dick, which I also enjoyed.
Growing up, I had a bestfriend for countless years. We would do everything together and were together all day, everyday. Overtime, I became emotionally attracted to him. I had the biggest crush on him.
Surprisingly, one day at school, he looked over at me and said, "wanna be gay for the year" being caught off guard, I didn't say anything. However, one day we were walking home from school and he randomly held my hand. Once we were inside my house (we were home alone), he asked if I wanted to make out on the hammock in my backyard and I said yes.
Once we were on the hammock, he got on top of me, and we started making out like crazy. It turned me on and I loved every minute of it. After making out for about fifteen minutes we stopped because his mom was about to pick him up. After he left, I couldn't stop thinking about him for the rest of the day.
We saw each other at school the next few days and nothing happened, but that following weekend we had a sleepover at my house. When it was late and my parents were asleep, him and I were cuddling on my bed and he started making out with me again. After a few minutes I grabbed his dick and then he asked me if I wanted to give him a blowjob. I said yes and got up to lock the door.
After I locked the door, he sat on the side of my bed and pulled his pajamas down. (For as young as we were, I was rather surprised how huge his cock was.) I got on my knees, starred at it for a few seconds and then he grabbed the back of my head and stuck his dick in my mouth. I sucked his cock for about twenty minutes until he jizzed into my mouth and I swallowed his huge load. He asked if I enjoyed it and I told him that I loved it. (It turned me on so much that I jizzed in my pants without even touching myself.) After I swallowed his load, we made out for a few minutes and then we went to sleep.
For the next few years, he would make out with me and let me suck his dick all the time, at his house, at my house, in the school bathrooms, and even at our neighborhood park. One time at school we almost got caught. I had just finished swallowing his huge load and he was pulling up his shorts when a teacher walked into the bathroom and noticed us in the same stall. Surprisingly, the teacher didn't say much and just told us to get to class.
Over those few years, I sucked his dick probably over 100 times and swallowed every load. However, for whatever reason, he never once sucked my dick or even gave me a hand job.
We eventually started growing apart and stopped hooking up. Although, we are still somewhat friends and talk every now and then.
As I said before, I think this experience is the reason that I'm bisexual. He's the only guy I've ever given a blowjob to and the only guy I've ever been in love with.
Do you think I'm actually bisexual?