I want to start over and live like a massive fat king
Stupid as this sounds, I wish I could move somewhere, to a country that worshipped fat guys, feeding, f u c k i n g, and pampering them, making them fatter and fatter, with plenty of s e x and food on hand, and several wives to take care of you.
That's the type of life I wish I could live. Sounds much better than the life I live now. Yeah, living in the US, I have lots of freedoms and such, but given how f-ed up things are, I want to indulge my deepest desires more and more and just forget about everything else. I'd rather do that and go out happy and blissful than struggling.
Fiji is your paradise.