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Saw my brother having gay sex and it turned me on.
Ok Im going to be totally honest here and say that Ive always benn kind of homophobic. I never wanted to, like, beat up gay dudes or anything but I always figured being gay was kind of sick and pathetic. Ive called gay guys names behind their backs forever, mostly "faggot". Ive never even felt bad about it until now.
Anyway, I was always proud to be straight. Im 23 and have been with a few girls and only watched straight porn and stuff. Sure I preferred the dudes to have big cocks but not because I wanted to look at their cocks or anything.
So I have an older brother who I always figured was as straight as me. Im staying with him for a few weeks over the summer and when I got there a couple of days ago I got there in the morning instead of afternoon when i was supposed to. I cant find him when i get there so I go upstairs to look. When I get there his bedroom door is open and I hear a lot of moaning. I sneak over and look in and I see my brother on the bed on his back with his feet up on some dark skinned dude's shoulders and the guy is fucking his ass hard.
Just looking at this guy from the back I can tell that hes lean and muscled and I realized I was staring at his clenching ass and jiggling balls. I got hard and almost came in my pants. All i could do was get out of there as quiet and fast as i can.
I ended up driving around the city for hours but my erection wouldnt go down. Twice I had to pull into a back alley and jerk off until I came. Im even naked and touching my dick as I write this in my brother's spare bedroom. When i close my eyes I can still see him getting fucked by that dude. I have no idea what to think or what to say to him.
The worst thing is that now Im thinking of my brother as a faggot and Im calling myself one inside my head too. I shouldnt but thats what im thinking. Does this mean Im gay?
If you're still interested in women then you're not gay, by definition. You might be bi. Likewise for your brother. He's clearly not straight, but beyond that I can't say based on the information you've provided.
Here's the important bit, though: It doesn't matter. There's nothing wrong with being gay. There's nothing wrong with being bi. And there's definitely nothing wrong with not labeling yourself, or even not knowing. You saw something that really turned you on. Great! Explore, whether it's just stroking to new kinds of porn or taking the leap. Just remember that "bi" covers a pretty wide spectrum, from "mostly straight but having incidental gay urges" to "mostly gay but having incidental straight urges".
Also, it can wax and wane. Personally, I'm always attracted to women, but my interest in guys (or, more specifically, cock) can vary wildly from day to day or even hour to hour. Sometimes I'm like "Cock? Nah. Gotta get some pussy" and other times I'm like "I need a mouth full of cum and an ass full of cock!"
Have you considered talking with your brother? He may be able to give you a lot of insight, and I'm sure he could certainly give you a more definitive idea of where he stands (or lays) than you can get by just speculating. You could just ask casually, or let him know what you saw. You could choose whether or not to reveal the reaction it provoked in you.
One more thing? "Faggot" is not okay. Don't call other people that, or even yourself, and don't apply that label in your head, either. It's bullshit bigotry, and it's antiquated.
Your not gay, maybe a little Bi. I'm married and have kids. However I still like to suck cock and get my ass fucked from time to time. My wife knows and is fine with it. She has even joined in on a couple occasion.
So your brother takes a dick once in a while, big deal.
Who does this have to define anything about you?
Don’t feed this fetish.