Old, but thinking of first affair
I'm 68 and my husband is 75. We've been married and faithful since 1968. We haven't had sex in 13 years. We've kind of been there and done that, and my husband's health is poor. He had a heart attack in '08. Our desire levels are pretty low. We are both retired.
I meet up with a group of seniors that take painting classes twice a week. Our teacher is cute and friendly: 35 years old and has degrees in art. He has taught even a novice like me how to operate a paint brush to make paintings in the style of Monet. He's smart and attractive.
The odd thing is that he flirts with me. I've gone out for coffee with him after class, and he recently invited me to his apartment. I said "no," because I know that he wants sex. Yet is a turn-on to have someone younger desire me like that, and I'm tempted. I haven't felt wanted like that in decades. He makes me feel like I'm 18 again.
I haven't had sex in so long that it's a memory. He's really handsome. It's just that I'd feel guilty about violating my marriage vows that I've held dear for 51 years. Of course I'd never leave my husband ever, but it is okay to have sex?