My girlfriend of 35 years

I dated my friends sister since we were in high school. Everyone made fun of her for being very skinny. We never had sex in high school, it was 7 years after, she was more beautiful than before. She was small breasted, I liked that. We rekindled our relationship status and by now we both had sexual experience. I heard she was quite the whore for a while, I didn't care she was hot and mine for the time being. She was very sexual with me, her tits still small and firm, to this day she was the most beautiful girlfriend I ever had, she had all the guys looking, especially in shorts and a sexy shirt, she'd get cat calls and horny guys would try to get her all the time, even once right in front of me the guy cared less about me. Our relationship didn't last 2 years. I kind of knew she wanted to fuck around before she chose a guy and settled down, I had to let go painful as it was, I was holding her back. Later she was married to a rough and tough constuction guy. A nice guy who had a lot of common interests with me. We became friends. I married a few years later, after 5 years I didn't want to be married to her, she was at times too controling and mean but my first chld came along. I swallowed my distaste for her. I wished I was with my old girlfriend everyday. I stayed in touch with her more than her husband. He didn't care he was drinking himself to death, he drank beer with me but was did shots of heavy duty whiskey went no one was watching. Homelife went on for all of us another 10 years. She separated telling him to sober up and not to come back until he did. My marriage was at deaths door. I told my old girlfriend everything, she told me everything too, we were getting dangerously close again, and you may as well have considered it an affair in progress without the sex, it was a serious emotional attachment we created. I could not take my wifes controlling and now bouts of insane anger, not only to me, her family got it and so did our kids. Her family pushed her to get counselling. It was there the therapist told her our marriage was basicly over. My wife came home angry and told me she wanted a divorce. I was able to keep the house and the kids. It wasn't easy to raise 2 young girls without their mom but they were better off and accepted it after some time and counselling. My girlfriend was very helpful and my girls liked her a lot. Her husband was in and out of programs failing most of the time, she gave up on him and was on me like a wet suit. It wasn't long she was back in my bed. She still was a nice looking thin woman, her small perky tits just made me crazy. The first night we got into sex, I watched her underess, when she took her bra off her tits sagged halway down to her stomach, it was shocking to me seeing her breasts so flat and long. Small long nippled saggy tits, I thought how cute is that. I got into her tits, I couldn't keep myelf off them. It was a huge change since the last time I had them. We were kind of back, we were cheating on him but he was either drunk or in rehab, he had no idea what we were up to but he knew she helped me with the girls. We were so close for 5 years then it ended. He made it 6 months sober, she let him come back home for the 4th time. This time he showed a strong effort and had some ethics about staying sober. The booze beat him down to skin and bones. She wanted to stop our relationship again. I always have a broken heart over her leaving me, everyday I wish we had more of a real relationship together, that our first real relationship never died. I haven't remarried I had 2 other short relationships after but no one was good enough, not for me they couldn't compare to my girlfriend. I'm not in a relationship, probably a good thing but I have a lady friend in town, a widow a former co worker, she has 8 years on me. I helped fix broken stuff in her house, she fucks me, that's as far as it goes. She's close, she likes sex and likes we can call on each other, it's consented adult sex nothing more. She's ugly as all get out but performs great, I do her good, I work her to get her off so she continues inviting me over. She never comes to my house, I've invited her, she's good enough for now anyway. I'm not desperate for sex or love. Out of the blue I called my old girlfriend to asking her to come over, I need you, I want to love you I said. She said no and I never heard from her since but she still sends my daughters birthday and holiday cards. In some ways I hope they get it together, he really was a good guy and pray he makes it this time. In other ways I'm jealous she's not with me but I get past it and pray she's happy. I also know she didn't want to hurt me, I know she knew the pain I'd suffer without her and I knew she had pain for being the one wanting to end it, she hated hurting me. I decided I will stay away from them. I could only be trouble and I'd not want to do that to them. He won her, I lost fair and square. I will not intererfere, not ever again, now everything has to stop between us. I will always love her, she helped me so much when I needed the help and the love. She will always be the best closest friend and lover I ever had and loved from the bottom of my heart, I wish them peace and happieness.

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