I want to have sex with my best friend
I'm a 16 year old male, and my best friend is a 16 year old female. We've known each other for almost 6 years now. I've been in love with her for pretty much 4 or the 6, and was never sexually attracted to her: until this year. I thought I was gay until I started getting aroused, so she thinks I'm gay. I'm not. Well, at least not when she's around. Since she thinks I'm gay, I've seen her naked, and seen her bras and panties that she wears, and she asks me about like outfits she should wear and tells me about her sex life. (Did I mention she's engaged?) once I saw her naked, I knew that I wanted to have sex with her. I've never been sexually attracted to any girl ever before. And now, I watch straight porn and imagine I'm fucking her. It's driving me insane because I want her so bad (both emotionally and sexually) which is not a good combo. So the hard part is should I lie and get her to send nudes and just masturbate to them? Or convince her to have sex with me somehow? Or should I just rape her?
What you need to do is tell her how you feel. She will reject you, but that's okay just move on. What you feel now you'll feel again. But you won't be trapped in the friend zone. Also no rape you sick fuck. You gotta learn to talk to women. Best way to do that is start meeting new girls. And what you feel now will happen again.