I still fantasize about my ex
Most of the time when I jerk off, I think about my ex-girlfriend. I think about a time after we'd broken up, when I was first dating the woman who is now my wife, when I was at a party my ex's roommates threw. We were trying to stay friends, and we ended up doing shots of tequila. We staggered up to her room and she asked me to sit next to her on her bed so she could "show me something". I said no. I knew what she wanted, and I didn't want to cheat. I sat on the floor, we talked a while, then she passed out and I went home. I often think about that night while masturbating and fantasize about fucking her that one last time.
I think it's normal. I've thought about, not my ex-wife, but, one of the first women I dated afterwards. Beautiful, blue-eyed, tanned skin, long hair, sexy, long golden nails that she teased me with even during our first dinner together. Dated her a few months, things didn't quite work out, but, she's kind of my go-to if MB.. Still think she's one of the most beautiful women I've ever known..