Not fair

I know it is just not fair, but I cannot prevent how I feel. I continually accept my husband’s permission that allows me to have sexual relations with other men, but I am too selfish to return the favor. I shouldn’t say allows, my husband actually encourages me and will participate as much as possible when possible. He frequently purchases me clothing to wear on my dates and he gives me gifts as a reward for having sex with other men. He has tried to explain his motivation. But I cannot even grasp why a husband would tolerate his wife being with another man, let alone encourage it. His behavior is so out of normal that he will even get grumpy if I go for more than a few months without an adventure that I can share with him.

The funny thing is that since we started participating in this marital arrangement, I find myself getting extremely jealous whenever he gets even the most innocent attention from another woman. For example, last Friday, we arranged to meet the man I am seeing now (Keith) after work at a restaurant near where I work. My husband got delayed with a project. So, Keith and I had dinner together alone. The possibility of having an evening with me without my husband present, something that had not happened yet, excited Keith immensely and he could not keep his hands off of me as we dined. I was forced to explain to the waitress that Keith was my husband after she caught us with his hands in my pants. We left the restaurant, and we found a private place to park while we waited for my husband. Keith could not wait, and we had intercourse in the passenger seat of my car. Later we met my husband at a pub that had live entertainment. To not arouse suspicion, Keith and I played the couple while my husband played the part of my brother. The thing was that there was a bachelorette party going on and they picked up that my husband was third in our group and asked him to participate as the stag in one of their games.

Although I had just finished having sex with Keith and was still planning on taking him home for a second encounter, I found myself extremely jealous of the attention my husband was getting from the girls. Now it wasn’t like my husband was going to get anything like the action I was getting. However, my jealousy was so bad that it affected my performance with Keith back home. So much so that I could not even orgasm. I was still angry in the morning, and it wasn’t until later when I saw how bad I made my husband feel that I started to feel guilty for being so selfish. This is not the first time that something like this happened. Because of me, he doesn’t have a single female friend. I don’t know why I am this way and why my husband puts up with it. Keith says that I should let my husband have some fun. But I cannot allow that.

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