That happened

My dad caught me stripping and twerking on cam.
I just turned eighteen. He just stood there looking at me.
I shut down my cam.
I won't lie I was always curious because I grew up hearing him fuck my mom.
I wanted to say something didn't know what to say.
I've got fishnets on stripper heels topless no panties. My clothes on the floor.
I almost cried but I didn't say anything or do anything.
My dad walked up next down took off my high heels unstrapping there buckles.
Laying me down over his lap I felt heavy firm swats on my ass as he spanked me.
I was so confused when after ten or fifteen swats I felt his fingers inside of me.
He made me cum several times with his finger.
He put me on my knees.
He was enormous and I sucked his dick.
He smashed me in reverse cowgirl then standing pressed against the wall. Then in doggystyle.
In missionary position looking into his face it suddenly felt very dirty and wrong I wanted it to end . I almost cried as he sucked on my npis and I had to convince myself to let him kiss me and feeling his tongue in my mouth grossed me out. The pleasure was over come but the weirdness of looking my dad in the face as he fucked me.
He rolled me over back into doggy nothing about the sex had changed.
But not I was cumming again and I loved every minute.
Eventually he came in me and we both got off massively. I even called him daddy as he fucked me in doggy getting off on the taboo
But is it weird I can't get off if I'm looking him in the face.