I think I'm gay
I've only ever dated girls but I recently decided to explore my sexuality. I went on a date with a guy and I cannot believe how much I enjoyed it. I was expecting him to want to just hook up but we really hit it off, we had a lot of fun. We kissed a few times and man the feeling was undescribable. I kept waiting for him to make a move, i would've been down. I'm not sure if I'm a top or bottom but I definitely want to try it all. My only reservation is my friends and family, they will disown me lol. But I cannot ignore the attraction I have to other guys. It's weird, some guys I see I could see myself being the top, some guys make me want to be a bottom. I guess I could be both? Idk how things naturally work. I've tried on girls clothes before in the past and felt hot AF but at the same time some feminine guys I see I just see myself being their man. So confused.
You’ll really be confused when you get action! I had fantasies of being a bottom forever during my first encounter. But I do see guys I would love to top, but they are usually smaller, shaved clean and long hair.
I think I might prefer a trans woman who will flip roles.
Where do you live?
Texas
You are allowed to be vers and take different roles with different guys, why not?
Live your own life for your own happiness and not to please your family.
Good luck!