Boy do I wish

Depends on which ex. My ex-wife? Hell to the fuck no. I'd rather run a power drill through my eyeballs. My ex-gf, prior to my current one? Can't lie and say I don't think about her and still desire her, b/c I do. Maybe not as much as before, but I still do want her and would run back in a minute, like an idiot, but I'd do it. She texted me a few months ago to pick her up from the hospital, and I did, barely hiding how elated I was to hear from her and look into those gorgeous green eyes again, even if it was only for an hour or so. I'm weak for her, and know it's wrong. But still weak when it comes to her.