Super chub with a Problem.

I'm a 28 year old gay man who would be considered a Superchub. If you don't know what that is, its a gay man who is super morbidly obese. To make matters worse I'm extremely fair skinned, have a chubby baby face, a full head of hair, and I have very little body hair. Most people say I'm very "youthful" looking which I think is code for the fact that I don't look very masculine. I have a partner/lover who is 5 years my junior who is into running and lifting weights. He is very buff and super good looking. Usually just thinking about him gets my juices flowing...I'm also the bottom in our relationship but I'm not necessarily submissive. I was an IT specialist until I lost my job due to the COVID shutdown... During the shutdown I gained a tremendous amount of weight. I went from a moderately active 550lbs to a housebound 890lbs in the last year. It's my own fault because I love to eat and as I discovered my partner has malicious feederism tendencies. Consequently I cannot find employment due to my huge size. I have difficulty find clothing that fit and I rarely leave the house. When I do it's a major undertaking and I feel like a circus freak because everyone stares at me. But that's nothing compared to the embarrassing situation taking place between my legs. Since the massive weight gain I have developed what I think is known as "mangina". My mons pubis has grown so fat that my genitalia is basically invisible. It was bad enough before the weight gain when just my lower belly hung over my groin but at least my genitalia was still visible when I laid down or lifted my belly. I have a larger than average penis in both length and girth but you can no longer see it due to my extreme size. The fat of my mons has surrounded my penis and testicles to the point where there is just a sort of fat slot that resembles a fat woman's vagina or what is sometimes know as a "coin purse". It's very deep and it makes urination difficult. I have to sit down to pee like a girl and I usually end up peeing all over myself. Also my size makes any form of masterbation almost impossible as I can no longer reach my penis... My partner think this is funny as hell to watch me struggle with this problem and goes out of his way to embarrasse me by telling our friends about it. He also refuses to suck my dick which he used to do beautifully when I was thinner. He says it smells and the smell makes him gag. He says it still smells even after I have been sitting in our soaking tub for an hour. All he wants to do is feed me and fuck me and he is getting really rough at times... He just pounds me unmercifly; sometimes without any kind of lube, cums and then leaves me without even so much as an offer of a reach around. He then goes into the other bedroom and sleeps because he says I snore too loudly and that there is no longer room on our bed because I've gotten so big and fat...He also says that my moobs have gotten so big that "I need a bra like a bitch" and has gone so far as to buy one along with a bunch of extenders. He forced me to wear it the other day. It was so tight that didn't even come close to fitting but he still took pics and sent them to all his gym buddies. I feel so humiliated that I just want to cry. I never had a problem with being fat before. I've been chubby since childhood and it was no big deal until now. Between the weight gain, my unemployment situation and being treated so badly by the man I thought I loved, I'm an emotional wreck. I feel worthless and less than human.... I've tried to lose weight but nothing works... Even if I'm good for a few days something happens that pushes me over the edge and I head straight to the fridge or I pick up my phone and order a food delivery... I'm so disgusted with myself and I feel hopeless. One of these days I'll probably just eat myself to death and that will be the end of it. Unfortunately that will leave my mom and dad with a huge mess to clean up, no pun intended. Burying someone my size has got to be a major problem financially and physically. But at least that won't be my problem.

By Anonymous

Embarrassing CONFESSION

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