What should I do?
I am sargun born indian 🇮🇳 currently living in uk 🇬🇧
I was born with my twin brother
Since we were twins we both were very close to each other
Totally inseparable brother sister
We bath 🛀 sleep 💤 play together
Even change clothes in front of each other.
We have bond more then brother sister
At 13 we did first sex as fun game
But after that train of sex with my brother never stopped
We started sex on daily basis
We plan on leaving india and go aboard to get marry there
Until at 19 when I got pregnant with my brother's baby
He freak out and run 🏃💨 off leaving me alone pregnant
To suffer alone
I was totally alone
When my parents got to know they got angry but more then that they were concerned about prestige and position in society as I come from business family this incident is going to affect directly to reputation of family and business.
My parents shifted me to UK 🇬🇧
I was in deep depression at the time
I was betrayed by one whom I trusted most whom I loved most in life most important he was my brother
we born on same day from same womb
I was about to commit suicide
with poison in my hand I was about to leave this sick of world
But then miracle happened that change everything and saved my life.
It was kick in my belly and this kick came from inside of me.
That movement changed everything in my life my heart beat got fast my eyes were full of tears But there was smile on my face.
After months of suffering and lost senses I got all it back
Heart clam down and got why should this life in my belly suffer for my sins.
I changed my decision and decided what ever happens I will give birth to this lovely life in my belly and rise him with all my effort.
Fast forward ⏩ 14 years (Today)
Today I live happy life in UK 🇬🇧 with my only love in this entire universe my Lovely Boy.
I started to practice yoga 🧘♀️
To concentrate and relax my mind.
He is my savior
He is everything mother can expect
Good caring boy
I never got married bcoz I don't want to divide my love between my boy and other human being on the planet.
I am happy with life with my lovely handsome boy
As 14 year have passed since that incident
I haven't been in any relationship not got married
With that I also started to hate mens
The only person about whom I cared was my son And don't want to divide my love with anyone else
Also with time my sexual desire die
I haven't touched my pussy me last 14 years
It's died inside
My pussy lost sensitivity it doesn't get excited even after seeing naked men or women or anything
But few days ago some change happened
I and my boy are very close
He haven't slept without me from day he born
We share blanket
We share everything to each other
We massage each other
I give bath/shower to him daily by myself
Every evening after I come back from gym and he from football
We take bath together
But few days ago
I was giving him bath
Applying soap gently 🧼
As My hand reached his private area
his dick got hard
This was first time I was looking his erection
I asked him he said this thing started few days ago.
Which gave me idea that he doesn't know why he is getting these erections.
I was in turmoil
I said leave it that way it will go in sometime.
Completed bathing wear clothes came out of bathroom took dinner
As we were heading towards bed my boy was in problem his boner was not settling at all. And he was not able to sleep
But he was not only one who lost his sleep as I do yoga 🧘♀️ I maintain good sleeping routine
But That night I couldn't sleep
All that was in my mind
That hard dick of my boy
I was stuck in my mind from bathroom I was imagining it only
The thing was I am feeling sensation in my pussy by thinking about that dick
The sensation that die 14 year ago came back life
And was making my pussy wet 💦
That doesn't came back by any other person in this world but from
Person about whom I care love respect most in my life.
My died pussy came to life again after seeing my son hard
But I was in total turmoil my mind was fucked up
One way it was feeling good other it's making me question my motherhood
At same time he was not able to sleepy too bcoz of boner
My mind was full on question
Should I teach him Masturbation ?
Will this make be bad mother?
What if my feelings for him started to grow?
What if got in sexual things with him
What he will thing about me
Next day I woke up late skip my yoga for first time in 10 years
All my mind was fucked saying not to do anything wrong and my pussy was leaking wanting me to fuck him
I was worried that I don't commit same mistake of last time.
I try masturbation after 14 years my pussy was feeling something inside
While that I can only imagine about my sons hard dick
To control all this
I stopped him giving bath asked him sleep in another room
He kept asking me reason
I was not able answer him help him
He is questioning my love for him
What should I do? ?