I miss it
When I was a teenager, two of my male cousins and I used to fool around with each other. Ever since we were little we were very close, so it wasn't suspicious to anyone in when the female bombshell of the family and the two studs hung out all the time. The three of us hit puberty about the same time (I'm older than the youngest of them by only two years), and an attraction blossomed between me and them. With the older one, we were each other's first kiss and we took each other's virginity. When the second one join us they were both my secret "boyfriends" and I was their girl (curiously, no one was suspicious about the fact that neither of us had a romantic partner by then). As young adults, by the end of our years of "affairs", we had experimented a lot, sexually, and we even engaged in group sex. I became addicted when they took my anal virginity, and at one point I experienced the most intense orgasm I've ever ha through double penetration.
Now I'm a married mom in her 40s, and in all those years I've never experienced such lust and pleasure. My cousins are married as well, and we get along as if nothing sexual had ever happened between us, not even a tease or a suggestion of it. All I can say is I miss it, I miss feeling so much pleasure and feeling so desired by an attractive man, not to mention two of them. If either of them suggested the possibility of an affair again, I'd say yes immediately.