Not sure if I should continue
I'm a woman in my late 20s. I've been in a very fulfilling relationship with an older man, but new information that came up has made me feel a little... icky about it.
As we've grown closer, he's opened up about his life, the good things and the stuff he's not proud of. Recently, we had a conversation on the mistakes he made in his life, and how at this late stage of it he's been trying to do things right. So he told me a story of how he was 20 when he knocked up his younger girlfriend, and consciously walked out on her to pursue studying abroad and vanished from her life, never to be heard from again. Years later, when he tried to make things right and came back, he'd found out she died years before, and couldn't find out the name of his child.
Here's the thing: when he mentioned his girlfriend's name and told the story, I felt a growing sense of dread. The girl's name was my mother's, who had me at about the same age he estimated, and I was born the year after he says he got her pregnant. I was registered with my mom's last name with no mention of the father, and she always refused to talk about him, so I never learned his name. She died a few years ago... the same year he says he came back to the town I'm from and my mom lived all her life.
So if you connect the dots, there's a good chance I've been dating and having sex (... great sex) with my own father without knowing it. I have no more family to ask, and I'm not on speaking terms with my mom's best friend. I could ask, but... Ignorance is bliss. Now I'm weirded out, but I could also pretend it's all a coincidence. I can't just ignore the fact that I've fallen deeply in love with him and that our chemistry in bed is dynamite.