I have held it in all these years
This i difficult for me , and yes it is true . when i was seventeen i was raped by a couple of Black men , they held me in this home for over 24 hours , i was afraid , and only being seventeen i was no big kid , they had me do all sort of sexual things to them and to myself . yes i was fucked , yes i swallowed their cum . it hurt like hell! , i was afraid they would either beat the hell out of me or worse . i gave them hand jobs and suck them off as well as them fucking me . finally i was let go , i was to ashamed to tell anyone or report it . so i have carried this with me all of my life ! i am 66 now and lately i can't seem to stop thinking about men's dick's . i find myself looking at them ! all colors and sizes . and tranny women as well . the desire to touch and take their cum haunts me constantly . i am married now , and all i can think of his having another man in my mouth . do men have these feelings when something like this happens to them . i am not gay but being bi , i wonder .my wife does not know of this .