I just found out my first Girlfriend died not too long ago

I confess that my First girlfriend of whom I fell in love with has died, I last seen her just less than 5 months ago, her and I spent a half a hour together talking like we did before many times, but lately of the past 7 days I started feeling down and drained and flushed out, like I got hit my a truck 20 times or more. Me and her are closely connected in our mood swings, than I found out she had died, I think she took her own life because me and her have not seen each other for the longest time. She and I never went all the way, what’s more I never kissed her goodbye, I was too shy to kiss her one last time. Her funeral and wake is off limits for me and most of my Dads family and most of her side of the family is unable to attend. Not one person is able to say goodbye to her or visit her, the only attendants of the Wake will be her Mom-Big Sister-little Brother and her Dad, everybody else is banned and prohibited from entering the house of her wake of which I am a hours drive away. I cannot say goodbye to her and neither may anybody else be in attendance of the wake. The only good news is that she wants her and I to share the same graveyard after I’m ready to join her in the next world. I will never be able to attend her funeral in this life or the next life. Only a tiny amount of people are going to be in attendance of the wake and I’m not invited and nearly everybody I knew and she knew is unable to pick up any pamphlets of her funeral to take home with them. She will be all alone with the very few people in attendance of her funeral or Wake. I am hoping my life is very short so that I may join her in that Graveyard we are going to share someday with our graves side by side in this cursed world of ours.

By Anonymous

Family CONFESSION

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