Our Father who aint in fucking heaven

I grew up in the church. My mother was very devout woman. She was a good woman. My father died when I was eight years old. He was killed in a work related accident. So mom leaned even more on the church for support. It was there that the Father prayed with us and consoled us. I was lost and alone and scared. The Father spent time with me and got me involved in the church. He took me under his wing. Then another Father from another region joined our church. He soon zeroed in on me and my mother. He took advantage of our grieve and did things he should not have done. One day I came home from school and he was in my mother's bedroom. Naked! He saw me and closed the door. I heard my mother with him like my dad use to do. I was very angry and wanted to kill them both. It went on for years. He would visit us and have dinner. I know he was screwing my mother. Then she got pregnant and he did nothing to help us. If it wasn't for the grace of God we would have lost our house. But we took in two roomers both women who needed help themselves. But they paid to live with us and it saved us from ending up on the streets. This man of the church who fathered my sister openly condemned my mother to others. I wanted so badly to tear him to pieces. He took advantage of my mother and created a life he took no responsibility for at all nor did he acknowledge his part. My mother a few years back before she passed away told my sister who her dad was. She found him and went to him. He denied being her biological father instead calling our mother a woman of questionable reputation. How dare he say such a thing. She told him that she forgave him but he wouldn't get off so easy with his heavenly Father who would hold him accountable for his actions. I would have punched him right in the face if it was me. We heard that he is now very sick and will probably die within the year. He has requested that we come both of us to see him. I don't want to go. He probably wants to confess his sins and try to make right before he dies. I told my sister she shouldn't go and let him off so easy. Besides he doesn't need us there he can do that at anytime. He just wants someone there so he won't die alone. I'm still angry over what was done and how he spoke of our mother to others in the church. Basically calling her a whore. I won't forgive this man. To me he is nothing more than a conman who preyed upon poor souls in his parish.

By Anonymous

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