Worked out in the end
When my cousin was at school she would suck and fuck anyone and i would use that to jerk off,we are both 26 now 2 years ago she had cancer,when she was having the treatment i started spending more time with her, talking about when she was younger she mentioned her bf would watch porn as she's in bed with him then he would fuck her,told her if that was me i wouldn't need porn would just fuck you as i was being honest with her told her i used to jerk off over her,she never mentioned it after that day,she got better and i did regret telling her the truth thinking at some point it's going to be a problem,she said she heard im looking for a place and that i can move in to her spare room which i did,a week living there she talked about the time i told her the truth and she was glad i was honest,that night i was having a shower she came in the bathroom and got in the shower not saying a word she got down and gave me a bj,when it was over she said now you don't have to wank about it you had it for real, finished showering we end up in her room fucking been like that for 5 months,if anyone comes round they don't have a clue about us.
Just get that free pussy