My biggest secrets.

I am sexually attracted to my cousin who is a few years younger than me. I went so far to secretly record her naked. The guilt is so unbearable that I did such a disgusting, immoral thing. I regret it all. Its wrong. Shes my cousin, so that's very wrong. I hate myself for doing such a thing. I deleted all of the pictures, all the recordings. The guilt has gotten so bad. I want to put the past behind me. I need to move on from my mistakes. I couldnt imagine what my family, friends, or even maybe a GF would think of me if i told them what i have done. They would probably disown me, my cousin would never talk to me, she's a awsome person. And she does not deserve anyone to do this to her. Im afraid of holding this secret forever. I need to let it out, and say i messed up, i want to move on, i just made a stupid misjudgment.

Another thing i did. i could hear my upstairs neighbor listening to porn one night. Shes in her 30s. Really cute. There is no insulation in the house. I can hear right through the floors. So one day i Secretly listened to her masturbate and did so for quite some time. I even installed a microphone to aid in hearing her. I had the worlds biggest guilt i have ever felt in my life. I took a step back and couldn't realize what i was doing. I removed everything. And just stopped listening in. Destroyed the microphone, the device. I need to stop doing things that are wrong and i find pleasuring. And need to grow up. I feel sorry for my mistakes, and want to move on. I feel very guilty for these two things i have done. Those are the two biggest regrets i have in my life. I was recently diagnosed with heart disease, two months ago. The kind i have is a very rare type of heart disease, many people die before this type is detected. I survived some how. I guess this is carma for my stupidity. I just hope i dont die. I want to see a psychologist, psychiatrist, social worker. Whatever i need to do to move on. And fix my messed up head. I need to change my thoughts. My ways. I will change. I promise. I want to change.

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  • My cousin was the one who first touched and wanted to suck my cock. She wanted me inside of her. She fell in love with me.
    25 years later she is a gorgeous sexy lady.
    I don’t mind saying I came so many times that summer.

  • My cousin was the first to put a cock in me so if you think what you did is bad? You’re an idiot

  • If you think you got heart disease because you were slightly pervy your thinking is off base.

  • Rid yourself of sin, repent, and find the Lord Our Savior Jesus Christ. Only He will allow you into the Kingdom, and embrace him, not the sinners who are the scourge of humanity.

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