Mental anguish
The summer before last I was forced , some call it rape , some call it sexual abuse. We were camping near a popular lake with some friends. Everyone was drinking and having a good time. I remember how incredibly hot it was , that night after everyone was heading to bed , I told my husband I needed to shower. I felt disgusting and stinky from sweating all day. He offered to go with , but for whatever reason I said that I'll be fine. I went to the park showers/restroom and showered. After the shower I wrapped a towel around myself and opened the door. I was immediately grabbed and thrown against the wall. I lay on the ground and looked up to see 3 men wearing nylons over their heads. One said we just want to fuck you , we've been watching you all day. Let's us have what we want and you won't get hurt. I started crying as they began their assult on me. Crying had no effect on what they were doing or what they wanted. Over and over they took me. When it was over there was some disgusting situations that happened then they started to leave. Just before leaving one said remember we know who you are so if you say anything we'll be back. I crawled back in to the shower and cleaned up. Minutes later my husband came in and said what's taking you so long. I told him that I had fallen and hurt my head and arm. He helped me back to camp. I haven't ever told him or anyone. But everytime I have enough free time I dive to the park and use the restroom. I'm not exactly sure why I do that , but it is something that is constantly on my mind. It's like I am going there to see if they are there or something.
You need to tell your husband, get professional help/therapy, and ignore the idiots saying you liked it. You may be drawn back to protect someone else, or to find the culprits, or to try and figure out why it happened. That’s why you should get therapy because you will not figure it out.
Consult a professional, psychologist or psychitrist.
Can I ask did you have to give them oral and did you cum when they're having sex with you
You’re a moron.
I don't see how answering those questions have anything to do with it.
Clearly you enjoyed it cos you keep going back for more, so quit crying over it. Anyone who that genuinely happened to would NEVER go back. Unless you're lying, which you probably are
Obviously you have no idea what you are talking about.
I agree, if it caused you that much trauma etc , you would not go back. I myself know what I'm talking about. Trust me. You would not go back. So I too call bullshit.
Fake story
Your an ass, for thinking I'm lying.
I think your husband actually set this up for you to get "raped" but it sounds like you actually enjoyed it secretly and this is why you keep going back
I don't think I liked it , I don't know why I'm drawn to go back .
U go back to get raped over and over again dont u. Fukn whore