I messed up

I've been in a relationship with same guy for 8 years. We met when I was in highschool he was in college. We had a lot of good years and we moved in together after I finished university and now we own a home and two dogs together. About 4 months ago I met a guy online. I've been feeling lost in my relationship for quite some Time prior to this and I guess maybe that's why I joined the website. I wasn't looking for Anything I had no intentions I always thought cheaters were repulsive and said it was something I would never do and that you couldn't love your partner if you did. About 3 weeks of talking to this new guy online everyday he wanted to meet me. I never thought it would get there. I hadn't told him I had a boyfriend, I lied and said he and I we're seperated. So I meet this guy we hit it off. At this point nothing has happened we say good night. But then I see him again and again and now we have kissed and now we have slept together and now I have met some of his family and he calls me his girlfriend. So I basically have two boyfriends who have no idea about each other! I feel absolutely terrible about this but I don't know how
To get out of it at this point. I don't want to hurt either one of them and I can't seem to decide on either one and when I think I know what I'm going to do I change my mind. There are pros and cons to both relationships and I'm having a hard time. Ive been lying to a lot of people and I can't keep doing this. The man I'm seeing wants to get more serious and I have been telling him I'm not ready and I need time to go public but I can't go public because I have a boyfriend! How do I decide, I need to make a decision and I need to make it now. And please no hate on me, I know what I'm doing is so so so wrong. I've never done anything like this before and I don't know what changed.

Sincerely
So confused

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