U better start changing or all start being punished for pleasures
Its sad mum that you love me enough to consider my feelings because you have never helped me marry and have kids. its sad because you seem to be so selfish you only think of your needs that I am there with you, but what about when your gone mum? it doesn't seem to worry you that you will never see my kids, or see my wedding day if ever, will you haunt me from the grave too and stop ? do you want me to die with you? well I won't. you could at least consider my feelings in all this. what I might want. I wanted you to be there on my wedding day and see your grandchildren. you drove your sons kids away. you keep driving everyone away like a selfish old hag, murdering those you say you love ? sorry that is not a mother. its so sad you won't be there, dad probably won't either, hopefully he will die before you will anyway, he is more of a burden to me that you are. but I can't stand the greif, I won't be there for that. I am sick of crying or having to hold anger in and all love emotionals seperate to myself. it really hurts me mum that you don't want to see me married and have a baby. you better start changing because god may punish you all. and I hope god does punish all who have wronged me soon so i can see it for myself. so I have closure knowing justice was done. then I can move on to a new phase of life. yeh I wanna get off on seeing them who hurt me the most suffer now. revenge dreams now!
Not sure what happened here. Are you upset because you have to take care of them or because they abused you. I would find a way and just leave.