Getting past the fear?
So a few years ago I met up with a cd to fool around. I was really nervous and didn't think I'd follow through with it but somehow I got past the fear for the first time and we met. Once we met up and I knew everything was fine I could just go with it. I sucked "her" cock, she sucked mine and she cummed all over me.
I have attempted numerous meet ups since her (more than 10) but I puss out. Each attempted meetup seems to get a bit closer but I always feel myself pulling back before the point of no return. I really need to try some cock just one more time to kill the desire but how do I get past that fear and actually meet up? I know I did it before but I can't remember how to just do it.
Disgusting
I don't think you can ever "kill the desire". I'm a 75 year old married man. Sucked my first cock about three years ago. A nice, smallish uncut cock. I still love uncut cock. I wake up every morning thinking about sucking cock... and go to bed doing the same. I'm hoping to suck, edge and swallow one of my regulars today while the wife is out of town. By now I have sucked more than 175 cocks and find myself sucking more and more big black cock these days. You're not going to get out of it ... so just get into it. Just start sucking cock and loving it like millions of us do. Good luck.