Sluttiest weekend ever

I literally had the sluttiest weekend of my life this last weekend. My friends wanted me and my boyfriend to go to a party but boyfriend couldn't go due to work.

Well I figure I would just go as a wing girl, help my friends out get drunk and have a good time.

I will confess I have cheated before. Bf knows about it and we worked through it. And I have been faith for three years.

So we all go to the party where it just happens that one of the guys I had cheated with was there. We were talking drinking and flirting, aND then we decide to go for a walk. Ending up in the woods. I give him a blow job and then let him fuck me.

We go back to the party where I proceed to get more drunk. End up blowing another guy and then hooking up with another. So Friday night ends with me having sex with two guys and having blown another.

Saturday morning I wake up next to sex guy number 2. I wake up horny, and he obviously is, and pretty sure I am still drunk at this point so end up having sex again.

After I get ready to leave but all my friends have ended up leaving with one guy or another or are still asleep and not gonna wake up until much later I am searching for a ride when a handsome Spanish guy also leaving asks if I want a ride. I say sure and he make our trek back towards town. He asks if I might wanna come over and get high, I figure sure why not as it will alleviate the hangover I know is coming. ( And I live in Colorado. So legal. )

So we proceed to go to his place get baked. And we both knew were he wanted this to go after he offered me a ride so we end up having the sex. Which turns out to be really good, and the added effect of MJ making it all the more intense.

After sex we lay about stoned for a while before I decide I really need to get home and take a shower. As I know I smell of sweat and sex. But Hispanic guy is still too stoned to drive so I get a ride from a mutual friend of the boyfriends who, I had cheated with back at highschool but didn't tell bf due to not wanting to ruin their friendship.

Well he asks what I'm doing at the current Residence that I need a ride so I confess to him I needed a ride, got high and had sex. To which he jokes that I just don't change, which isn't really a joke and I pretty much agree I haven't.

Long story short. End up having sex with mutual friend, who in hindsight is not a very good friend. He takes me back to my place. No one home so we have sex on the couch.

It is literally here that it hits me how terrible I am. I've just had sex with four different guys(One twice) in two days, and blew another. And was in the act with the forth and I didn't feel guilty at all.

I'm suppose to be with the lovery of my life and I don't care that I'm having sex with another man.

After we are done I kick him out, even though he says he can go again. I just don't care as I'm wrapped up with how terrible I am for not feeling bad. Shower. Get cleaned up. Go to text bf.

Find out where boyfriend is and offer to take him to dinner and see antman( Good movie btw), being that he has been wanting to watch it. So I do just that. Buy dinner. Pay for the movie. The least I could do. And then take him back to his place and have sex with him. Mind blowing sex. Great sex.

Afterwards he wants to know what I did that I had sex like that. I tell him that I just don't feel it anymore. The sex is great but it is no different than sleeping with another guy. I confess about the party, thought only the one transgression. And tell him we need to break up cause I'm never gonna change and he deserves much better. Fight ensues, more him being mad which is understandable. Leave single.

End up going out with friends again. Hook up another guy at the bar.

I realize I am a horrible person and a slut. But at this point in life I realize I just can't stay tied down.