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My Brother's Fault
I understand that people have fantasies, but what I have I feel is more towards pervert than fantasy.
As a kid I was introduced to sex at a very early age (3th or 4th Grade) by my elder brother, started out harmless where he would show me magazines and pictures of women in bikinis. Then it got physical I am not sure how it started but I do remember sucking his cock and him cumming in my mouth, and some nights he would suck me off. At the time I really didn’t know what was going on, and since my mom was away that year it was just me him and my dad. So you can say I had no one to talk to around the house other than him. As time progressed it started more often and would happen almost every night and you can say I started enjoying it.
When my mom returned with my sister the summer of that year I noticed myself staring at her breasts all the time and at night whenever I got a chance and she wasn’t wearing a bra I would cuddle and hug her to feel her boobs against my face, of course she though it was all innocent. Also peaked at her nipple every chance I got. I felt myself changing and desperation started to take over, started steeling her panties and jerking off in them, while at night the story with my brother continued.
My brother and I never really had intercourse, he did try once without any kind of lubrication and I remember telling him to stop because it started to hurt. Eventually my sister grew up, but I never had the courage to do what my brother did to me to her because I had grown up and started understanding and seeing things clearer. But that didn’t stop me from going in her drawer and stealing her panties.
This is the first time I am able to talk about this, now that I am 24 finishing engineering school. I have had a few girlfriends and a lot of sex. But I don’t find it full filling. I have so many different fantasies but have acted on very few. The basic ones
Blowjobs
Anal sex
But my fantasies go beyond that and not limited to girls. I find myself jerking off to
Gay porn
Tranny porn
Bi MMF (one of the favorites)
Bi MFF
I recently started logging on to chat site and trying to find older women that would be willing or be interested in younger men.
I feel like there nothing I would do. Recently I went on omegle wearing my girlfriend’s panties.
I really want to talk to people that have the same urges I do. I feel so stressed and sometimes even depressed. It’s one thing to be addicted to sex but a totally different thing to be thinking about all this while having sex…
I used to be in perfect shape but now I have let myself go for the past 3 years. I don’t find myself at easy or happy with myself at all. I am also a very shy person it’s very hard for me to say what I really want. Anyways if anyone wants to get in touch please comment
Me and you are just alike i have the same thoughts . Would love to talk to you more about this .
You’re a toad.
This is way more common than you think. Go see a therapist who you can talk to in confidence and figure what you are seeking emotionally but not getting through sex...
Like you I learned about sex with my older brother.we shared a room and our beds were only 3 ft away from each other.when we were about 12 and 13 we started noticing each other through our thin summer pjs.one night it was obvious we both had raging hardons we put the lights out.not knowing what to do I put my foot down to the carpet and inched it towards his bed until I touched something(it was pitch black ).it was his leg! we both pulled back,nervous as hell.after a few minutes of heavy breathing I tried again and he did too.this time we ran our foot up each others leg and rubbed each other with our feet.after a few mins I decided I had to go further so I reached over and puuled down his bottoms and took him in my mouth.his body felt so warm.he lasted like 1 minute and came in my mouth.i then laid back on my bed and he reciprocated. it was awesome.our first sex!.so anyways ,you are not alone.i had some guilt in my teens but have come to accept the fact that we were just helping each other out with our crazy teen hormones.