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In love with a lie...?
I put this under sex because that for all I can figure is the real limfac in this whole thing. So I was recently deployed and during my deployment my now x decided to become a complete whore. Beyond that she let her multiple partners stay at our place (she had no job I payed for everything, so my place) and had plenty of random guys and girls from bars join in. So needless to say we decided to end things. Well being separated (with zero chance of reconciliation) I joined an online dating sight. I met this girl and we hit it off like crazy. I could not wait to talk to her after every mission and she seemed just as eager to talk to me. Well after getting back and her refusing to meet I come to find out she is under age. We still talk. I have never felt quite like this about anyone and would be totally willing to wait until she is 18( she is 15) but I will be restationed by then and don't know that it would be any easier. I've never actually wanted someone under age before (fyi the age difference is large enough but not unheard of or discussing) and certainly never thought I would ever consider acting on any but she has captivated me (not even just sexually although that attraction is undeniable it is not primary). It's a hard situation, and although i have always believed in fallowing your heart this situation has well...left me dumbfounded enough to ask the opinion of complete strangers. What's "right" here? Should I turn my back on it all for the greater good? Or hope love overcomes?
When I was 14 our neighbor who thought I was 18 invited me over several time to use his hot tub even if he wasn't there he just told me I could use it any time I wanted.
Well one afternoon I got home from a long hike with some friends and I felt a it sore in my legs so I decided to go into our neighbors hot tub. I put on my only swim suit a bikini and when I got there he and another guy was in the tub already I stopped almost decided not to join them but they talked me into getting in with them and they separated and told me to come on in the water is fine and Jim patted the seat next to him and slowly I did and sat down next to him and he immediately put his arm around my shoulders and pulled me close to him. I didn't say anything and in a matter of three minutes he started in rubbing my nipple making it stand out even more than it was and again I didn't say anything I just thought he hit it by mistake and I didn't want to draw attention to it. But when he slid his hand beneath my top and took hold of my breasts I knew it was no mistake especially when he planted a big kiss right to my lips as he rubbed my nipple even harder, my breathing became harder and the other guy who I never did get his name started in rubbing my leg going higher and higher till he was teasing my clit to no end and I lost it. About that time I saw that Jim and the other was nude I mean they had nothing on at all and I couldn't take my eyes off of Jim for he was supporting on hard boner the biggest I have ever seen outside or a few porn videos where the guys had 11 and more inches Jim noticed and took my hand and put it on his cock and I barely could reach around him, at first I just held him but in a matter of a
Minute or two I started in stroking him and when I did Jim kissed me again and again even teasing me with his toung. Then he took off my swim top and now my C cup breasts were in plain view and the other guy took hold of one nipple between his lips and began sucking on me rubbing his toung all over my hard nipple sending I don't know but he made my whole body tingle from what he was doing and what Jim was and before long Jim was the first to take me and I thought he was huge but the other guy who finished off in me had 10 inches and very thick for he hurt me to start with but the third time he fucked me I was fucking him back and I fell in love with his cock in me. I mean for weeks that is all I thought about even tho Jim was fucking me all of them days all I could think about was having the others cock in me filling me to no end.
When I was 16, I met a wonderful girl who was 12. She looked older, being fully developed, but out of respect for her age, I never touched her. Maybe out of frustration with me, she met another guy and ran off and got married at 15 1/2. That marriage was anulled, and she met another guy, got married again and had 4 girls. We have stayed friends for over 55 years and regularly correspond. I have told her how I felt love for her but was unable to express it at age 16 or later. She responded telling me she always loved me too. We just started too early.
My recommendation is keep up the relationship but keep your distance. She will grow up and maybe stay in your life forever. My wife and I are 12 years apart, but have been married for 44 years. So don't give up hope...
Talking will eventually lead to feelings, feelings will eventually lead to desire. Desire will eventually lead to, well, you get the picture. Up to you but as a talky-talky getting to know meet-up thing the after effects will be catastrophic. Hope you're not in the military if you were to desist to be in her physical presence.