PART #1√CONFESSION washed-up.Porn Actor🚫Star 1970's

Before I begin let’s test you Gay IQ. Many of you have heard of Stonewall, NYC if you haven’t you may want to say, Google. In the late 1800’s and before, anyone say closet? In the days before, “Queer” “Faggot” “Peter Puffer” “Fudge Packer” Homosexuality was damn near a hanging offense. It remains so today throughout Islam and Muslim countries, get caught and as a matter of honor you are very likely to be killed, stoned or thrown for a building. So, when you see these protestors, “Gay for Palestine” nothing could be more absurd, stupid and ignorant. Gay in Gaza would be a death sentence, and no! Nobody would give a shit that you had been dispatched.

Throughout the first half of the 20th century homosexuality was as “Back Alley” as getting an abortion, even more so. It was however, more palatable to be a lesbian than a queer. Cases in point, many of the big stars of motion pictures were homosexual. Without hurling mud at the dead, their names today are easily found in books and on YouTube. In fairness many were involved with the opposite sex but their sexual dedication remained with same sex relationships. This was demanded by the old Hollywood System that governed your life if you wanted to remain famous and in the dough. Historically homosexuality flourished in the Roman Empire but in 350 BCE it was far more accepted than it would be in the 16th century and beyond.

When I was growing up I was well indoctrinated by adults, beware, be afraid of those, “Queer Bastards-Freaks-Fucking Pedophiles’ who by most opinions should be thrown beneath the jail and never released. As a boys in my day we were often asked if we knew of any of these cocksuckers so the police could go take them off the street. We were told to alert an adult if a “grown-up” approached us with sex talk or and invitation to ride or come to their house. Just imagine, as a gay man having to be cautious and very careful of how you spoke to any boy under the age of up to age twenty. Keep in mind, anyone could “Rat you out” if they were suspect of your sexual orientation. I recall a small market owner, Joe, (closet gay) The year, 1964 Joe had the first 1964 ½ Ford Mustang. Every boy wanted to ride in one, and Joe was more than willing. I suspect that is why he bought it, to attract curious boys. Let me say, no 15–16-year-old boy lets a grown man give him a blowjob unless the boy wants it. We all know that! It is the aftermath. The boy cums and has recriminations of guilt, oh what has he done? Will I go to hell? Soon, the boy confesses to ease his conscious. That was Joe’s undoing. Four boys wound up confessing and Joe, well Joe got 15 years in the state penitentiary. Fifteen years? For what? Giving a few mid-teen boys a blow job. Frankly, if not for scrutiny or embarrassment, getting caught I was tempted to let Joe get me off, on more than one occasion.

Now learn, do a little research on this. From the 1920’s (today I have no clue) until the early 1980’s Morocco, Northern Africa especially Tangier on the Metatherian Coast was even though Islamic/Muslim was a homosexual haven. It was the Gay destination of choice. Young tender boys flowed like sweet plentiful wine. For a few Moroccan Dirham one could enjoy the pleasures of a young smooth boy or if one had a full purse, a dozen boys for days. And it was not only boys from Morrocco. Boys from other countries in Africa, Europe, and the United States took the sojourn for I am guessing the pleasure and the easy money. Since it is no secret, luminaries from the Beat Generation were plentiful, Allen Ginsberg, Jack Kerouac, Neil Cassidy, William S. Burroughs and more were regular visitors as were many motion picture stars you may or may not know due to your ages.

It was 1966, I was working for a man who owned two large hotels in my city. I had a token job at my tender age of cleaning what the female maids did not. Vacuuming, carpet shampooing, window washing as maids were for the basic cleaning. My employer who called himself, Lucky was a dyed in the wool life-long homosexual. His preference was young boys. Twinks Lucky got interested when a boy was fourteen, I qualified. Lucky however, was perhaps unique in that he made damn sure you were not going to get the guilts and go confess. His methodology simple, Lucky paid earnings in cash. He let you see inside his safe when he got your salary. Generally paid weekly. The safe was full of gold coins, silver bars. And stacks of cash, lots of it, I’d guess, $50,000 if there was a dime. Sometimes Lucky would hand me a stack of $10,000 saying, help me count this. He knew damn well it was all there but this exercise was all about temptation. Lucky saying, “Work hard, get an education and someday you’ll have more than this tiny sum. After counting Lucky would toss me a $20 like $216.00 in today’s money. Many weeks Lucky would pay me, $100 for say 30 hrs. work, like $987 in today’s money. Lucky was worth a a few million, he was paying me chump change to groom me.

Then the moment of truth. All along Lucky would let me look at magazines, “Sluts and Slobs” “My wife the hooker” mags filled with explicit shit, like tits, pussy and people fucking and sucking. He would just hand me a stack, saying, “Just put them in the utility slot when you are finished.” I would go to an empty room and proceed to jack off probably several times. Lucky knew exactly what the magazines would do to a young boy’s sexuality. It went from there to 8mm. reel stag movies shown in his large apartment in the penthouse of one of the hotels. Lucky was a master groomer, he employed a maid, Gloria from Panama a 25-year-old fox by anybody’s standards. Gloria was a whore on stand-by Lucky used to entertain guys he was doing business deals with. Not by accident at all, one day while watching stag movies, Gloria knocked and entered. “Oh my! You boys are being naughty watching that stuff, should I go?” Lucky said, no hun, why don’t you take the kid to a room and show him what it’s all about. Lucky said, Well go on, go get your first piece of ass, enjoy! Gloria was teaching me to eat pussy, eat her ass, and fuck until I could last more than two-minutes. I think on the third fuck I got up to 10 minutes before cumming. It was the ultimate in sexual corruption and grooming. I recall being redundant, asking when I could fuck her again. That was the carrot dangled from the stick.

One day, a few weeks later as I watched a stag flick with Lucky, turned on, hard as a rock, Lucky sat beside me and began massaging my cock. I could have cared less, it felt so good. Next thing I was in bed with him, getting head, then my cock being greased so I could fuck him up the ass. It is just like Gloria’s pussy he told me. And I fucked him and it did feel good, I had a very good orgasm. Lucky let me fuck Gloria a few more times, the catch, I had to fuck him about 10 times to one fuck with Gloria. I’d have to admit now, when I got turned on like every time looking at magazines or stag flicks, I was ready to have Lucky unbuckle my pants and lead me into the bedroom, my cock hard and ready for some head and to fuck Lucky’s ass.

I don’t know about today, but then, older men who had a pretty young trick liked to show you off. (Lookie..see what I got!) Sharing a trick with another gay dude was popular especially when it was advantageous. So, soon Lucky was loaning me out, “Slutting me out” I had become a piece of meat, a sex toy for men old enough to be my grandpa in some cases to use. Thing was, I didn’t mind, men would get me high on booze or pot get me turned on, I was ready to please because it generally felt very good to me as well.

Then I was loaned to Dick, he like to fuck as much as he liked being fucked. Dick was a good 7 inches and thick and the firs time I got fucked. He was not gentle, he fucked me with heat and passion, fast and deep. Indeed, it hurt like hell but the $150 he gave me helped me get over that; I got to shit feeling that lasted a week. Next time, Dick got me prepared by using butt plugs a few hours before he fucked me, eventually his fucking me felt really good.

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