I can't wait to get an apartment so I can be a dirty slut

I had a strict upbringing. My mother allowed my brother to have sex and be normal but she would isolate me and abuse me. I'm still a virgin and also awkward because of my isolated childhood. I only ever did stuff with guys online like on webcam. I loved the attention because I never got it growing up. I also found out I'm into kinky degrading shit I think due to being m**lested by different men numerous times when I was younger. I didn't like being abused like that but for some reason that type of abuse makes it so you can only get turned on by abuse. I sometimes fantasize about having my own apartment so I can engage in the dirtiest, sluttiest, degrading sex I can. My favorite fantasy is being facefucked, gangbanged, and creampied by homeless men and letting them piss on me and drinking it also.

I don't know if I would have the courage in real life but I daydream about it constantly. I'm still living with my parents so I haven't been able to bring men over but I'm so close to getting an apartment and I hope it all works out.

By Anonymous Apr 11

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