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First sexual interaction
I saw a lot of posts saying how early sexual experience with cousin left a scar on peoples psyche. My experience is completely different OR I don't recognize it as a scar just yet and it is yet to understand. But to the point.
I don't remember exactly how it started, my first memory of this topic is when I was 10 or 11 (M), lying in bed with two male cousins, one 3 years older, second 5 years older and having jerk off competition - the first one that cum wins. But how did I get there in the first place? I had problems in my home - nothing about sexual abuse - just felt hated here by my uncle that happened also to be my step dad, so I took every opportunity to not stay there. Good thing I had aunt and uncle nearly so I spent weekends at their house regularly. They had small apartment so I had to sleep with two older cousins, but it was better than staying in my house.
As I said, my first sexual memory there was this jerk off competition. The second one was when we we're kissing for the first time - It was our first direct incest gay interaction. The same night when the older cousin was absent i touched his dick for the first time. He wasn't pushing me to nothing, i think we we're experimenting with having, I kinda liked it. That's why the next memory is him putting it between my thighs.
But what I remember the most is when I tasted it. I was the night before older cousin's confirmation when I went for it - he never pushed me to anything - I kissed his dick, then licked it and took the tip to the mouth - that's all that could fit in my small mouth. I remember the texture, interesting shape nad taste, but the thing that is driving me crazy even now is the smell. I was the one that asked if he'd like to try to put it up in my ass, but he refused and said he's afraid it'll be too big and may hurt me. Now when I smell something even slightly similiar to this, I'm remembering this dick in my mouth and wanting to try it again. It's a shame it ended.
I was 10 or 11. Was it abuse? I don't think so. I'm 31 now and I can admit that I totally liked it, would love to do it again with him. Haven't confronted him about it because I didn't feel like I need to, so I don't know how does he feel about it - he's married and have 3 children now and I wouldn't want to destroy it out of my pure curiosity what he thinks about it.
On the other hand, maybe that's because I am who I am now - bisexual male that would want to do it again with someone my age or a bit older but I'm afraid to try - since we stopped is I was only with girls and I wouldn't even know how to approach a man so I end up sucking his dick, but I do want to smell it and feel it in my mouth again.
Mom came to my bed regularly before school to cuddle. One morning I felt her naked body on my bare back. Her hard nipples pressed on me. She began to caress my stomach and then stroke me. She had me face her and suck her tits. I came then she masturbated
Mom and I were watching hbo long ago. An erotic scene came on with a woman and her son. I was laying next to her and placed my leg on hers and I got so hard. She said what’s that throbbing. As I tried to move she said to stay still. After some dick throbs on her she faced me and said this is our secret and pulled off her nightgown and told me to strip. She told me to suck her nipples. She jerked me off and then rubbed her pussy.
My female cousin stayed the summer I was 16. We she is a year older. Mom had already been somewhat sexual w me but no intercourse yet. Mom had a huge shower with dual heads. One evening she asked my cousin if she wanted to shower together. I was jealous yet turned on. Well couple min later I get called to her bathroom and mom said that Marisa asked if I could join. Omg. We were all naked and that’s my first intercourse experience
Mom touched my had cock one morning thinking I was fully asleep.
I was 11 when my older cousin told me to lay on the couch and he raised up my dress and pulled my panties off of me. He told me to relax and let him do something. He pushed my legs apart and then he licked me and he said that I tasted really good. He spit in me and rubbed it all over on me. He stood up and pushed down his shorts and then he got on his knees in front of me and walked close between my legs on his knees. He was hard and bouncing up and down as he was getting between my legs. He put it on me and rubbed it up and down until he had it poking into me a little bit. He spit down on me again right where it was poking into me and then he told me to relax again. He held me by my hips and he started to push himself into me. It was hurting a little bit but it was also strange and it felt kinda good to. He kept pushing it in and then it was hurting a lot. He just kept telling me to relax. Just relax. It's ok just relax. I was really hurting and he was telling me how good it was feeling. I was just about to tell him to stop when I realized that he was all the way inside me. He was saying oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah over and over again and then I saw him jerking around and I could feel him inside me pulsing and I thought peeing in me. I could see that it must feel incredibly good to him. Then he kinda relaxed and then pulled out of me. I could feel a rush of something come out of me. He stood up and pulled up his shorts and put my panties back on me and told me that I could go now since he was done.
I was twelve when I bottomed for the very first time.
See that's a normal reaction to experimenting.